- I love how some people name their cars, I always strangely admire that, but have never been able to do it myself.
- I so did not want to go to the gym today, something to do with the screaming and crying 2 -year old, the boss that's driving me insane, and the 4th day in a row I needed to take my husband to work because the truck is still in the shop. But I went and I had a good run, great in recent comparison, so in the end of I was glad I went as was Megan who came out of the nursery much happier than she went in.
- We so need to get on getting a new car, we've been talking about it for about a year now. This would be a 3rd car for us, which isn't as consumptive as it sounds (I don't think). I drive a Pathfinder (which we got to replace my husband's Blazer in '03), my husband drives my little Nissan 4x4 pickup that I had when we met. The problem is that Megan's car seat won't go in the truck (particularly if me and my short-short legs are driving) and no way can all three of us can get in it ever. So if anything were to ever happen with the Pathfinder or Megan and I couldn't get her from school or something, we'd be stuck. We have no intention of getting rid of my truck which is paid for, dirt cheap to register and insure and great for trips to the Home Depot, we just need a back up family car.
- We are on Day 5 of official potty training (diapers/pull-ups only in bed) and had only 2 accidents so far. Yeah!!!
- I missed the gym yesterday (taking my husband to work/my work/Megan school) but never-the-less, I'm feeling back on track with my workouts this week, and even planning on getting my long-run in before Pilates on Sunday and doing my normal Friday workout on Saturday so by week's end I will have completed all my workouts for the week.
- Heard a great response to the question I asked a few weeks/month ago about what makes you a runner opposed to a jogger . . . signing your name to the piece of paper and actually entering a race.
- Peanut Butter M&M's are the Devil and I am its Minion. Damn me for buying those for Potty Treats.
- Yeah, diet still sucks - actually looking closely at Precision Nutrition today and contemplating if I should try hiring a nutritionist, since workouts are not my problem I'm confident in my ability to get myself into the gym and get it done - I don't feel that way with my diet.
-Sunnie's comment about my water consumption has been in my head this week and I have definitely picked up the pace - still not a gallon or whatever it is that extremely fit people are purported to drink but it's better than the one maybe two bottles I was doing at the gym and not touching the stuff again for the rest of the day. So thank you Sunnie.
- Date night tonight. Got a sitter, and we are having dinner and hitting Toys R Us to get kid shopping done. Ah! The great life of married folk with kids, just like I always hoped it would be. I'm working very hard this afternoon to rest and relax so that tonight is actually going to be as much fun as I originally hoped it would be. Being a parent and getting to go a little nuts buying toys for your kid (and nieces and nephews) is actually like the next phase from being a kid. Being Santa is cool!!! But I had a rough morning, I want to kill my boss, and I started today so I'm really having to do some PMA adjustments because I want to be in a great frame of mind tonight before I have to go pick up my husband from work again.
- I finally beat Katie again - by 1 point! Our games are so ridiculously close, although the current one is about over and I know she's got this one on me, got great words, just not in great places on the board this time - she may even beat me by as many as 20 points this time.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Monday, November 26, 2007
A Great Day
I'm getting a cold, but I'm fighting and refusing to let it win - so far it's only really bugging me at night when I'm trying to sleep.
I went to Pilates yesterday for the first time in months and was so pleased with how much I didn't lose. Although the instructor that used to kill me wasn't there, so maybe this woman was easier, but I don't think by much. I thought I'd be terribly sore today too and I'm not. I'm very much looking forward to going again next Sunday. I didn't realize exactly how much I missed it. I'd told Tony from Day One that I wanted to keep doing Pilates but either he couldn't remember or didn't want to: I finally gave in and did his workouts and skipped Pilates, but I'm happy to be back.
I had a good interval run today. I need to come up with something a little different for my weight/circuit training days . . . what I had plannedwas too easy last week, it left me going, "Okay, now what?"
Today was a great day. It was Monday which is my favorite day of the week, as I've said before, but today had nothing to do with the fact that it's the one day of the week that I have, in theory, a few hours to myself.
After the gym, I called my husband who:
- asked me out on a date in mid-January, wouldn't tell me for what, and even got the sitter lined up
- told me he'd arranged to have our truck fixed and has his rides and the whole thing taken care of
at this point I was pretty sure my husband had been abducted by aliens. Then at dinner tonight he told me he'd called his brother and arranged everything for his father's Christmas present (I won't even get into how many times I nagged him about Father's Day - which finally got settled on Thanksgiving -don't ask!) and I hadn't even reminded him once he needed to do it.
AND, the big news is that Megan refused to let me put a diaper on her to go to school today (we've been wearing underpants at home and she's done great) so I took a deep breath, packed extra pants, socks and shoes talked a lot with her teachers and with her and fully expected that she'd have an accident today, but it's all part of learning, right? Well, you can't even imagine my surprise when I went to pick her up, peeked through the window and there she was wearing the same clothes that I'd dropped her off in!!! I was so proud!! She let me put a pull-up on her for naptime (which is finally getting better) and then it was back to underpants and she didn't have a single accident all day!! I guess it's official, we're really potty training, no more screwing around, I'm just going to have to suck it up and be prepared to run to bathrooms in every store we go into (which isn't really that different, since I always need to use the bathroom when I'm drinking water like I'm supposed too.)
Now if I could only beat Katie at Scrabble (Monica it's your move)
I went to Pilates yesterday for the first time in months and was so pleased with how much I didn't lose. Although the instructor that used to kill me wasn't there, so maybe this woman was easier, but I don't think by much. I thought I'd be terribly sore today too and I'm not. I'm very much looking forward to going again next Sunday. I didn't realize exactly how much I missed it. I'd told Tony from Day One that I wanted to keep doing Pilates but either he couldn't remember or didn't want to: I finally gave in and did his workouts and skipped Pilates, but I'm happy to be back.
I had a good interval run today. I need to come up with something a little different for my weight/circuit training days . . . what I had plannedwas too easy last week, it left me going, "Okay, now what?"
Today was a great day. It was Monday which is my favorite day of the week, as I've said before, but today had nothing to do with the fact that it's the one day of the week that I have, in theory, a few hours to myself.
After the gym, I called my husband who:
- asked me out on a date in mid-January, wouldn't tell me for what, and even got the sitter lined up
- told me he'd arranged to have our truck fixed and has his rides and the whole thing taken care of
at this point I was pretty sure my husband had been abducted by aliens. Then at dinner tonight he told me he'd called his brother and arranged everything for his father's Christmas present (I won't even get into how many times I nagged him about Father's Day - which finally got settled on Thanksgiving -don't ask!) and I hadn't even reminded him once he needed to do it.
AND, the big news is that Megan refused to let me put a diaper on her to go to school today (we've been wearing underpants at home and she's done great) so I took a deep breath, packed extra pants, socks and shoes talked a lot with her teachers and with her and fully expected that she'd have an accident today, but it's all part of learning, right? Well, you can't even imagine my surprise when I went to pick her up, peeked through the window and there she was wearing the same clothes that I'd dropped her off in!!! I was so proud!! She let me put a pull-up on her for naptime (which is finally getting better) and then it was back to underpants and she didn't have a single accident all day!! I guess it's official, we're really potty training, no more screwing around, I'm just going to have to suck it up and be prepared to run to bathrooms in every store we go into (which isn't really that different, since I always need to use the bathroom when I'm drinking water like I'm supposed too.)
Now if I could only beat Katie at Scrabble (Monica it's your move)
Monday, November 19, 2007
Why Blogging is Bad
At least everyday it is . . . for me. What complete drivel I posted last week. Please excuse me and I promise to only post when I have something somewhat meaningful to say.
So rather than continue to post complete garbage I used that time to come up with a new plan, which I have struggled with for some time now. I know I want to run a 10K which means putting in time on the road (when I say road, I mean anything but the road: I still refuse to run on pavement or concrete for fear of injury, but you get the point), but I also like my muscles and don't want to lose them, so what to do what to do. Apparently, lately -- nothing.
But I know have a plan which I have taken a bit from Runners World, Oxygen and my own brain (scary, yes I know) and what follows is what I've come up with - and is subject to change if I find it's not working for me, or as I receive more credible information/suggestions.
I'm still looking for a race to run (since my fear of the road severely limits my choices, even here in Colorado where trails abound) the one I've found is in May - which is a bit further out than I'd like, but the way my training's going right now, it could be just what I need.
Monday – Interval Run
5-10 minute warm-up
3 minute run at 90-95%HR
2 minute recovery
Repeat 5x
10 minute cool-down
Tuesday – Rest Day
Wednesday – Circuit Training*
10 minute warm-up
Overhead Walking Lunge 6-8 reps (per leg)
Mixed-Grip Chin-up 6-8 reps
Tricep Dips 6-8 reps
Rest 60 seconds
Repeat 1-2x
Bicep Curls 10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Back Ext w/ Lower Trap Raise 10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Repeat 2-3x
10 minute cool-down
Thursday – Tempo Run 1/2 - 3/4 long run time at 80-85% HR
Friday – Circuit Training*
10 minute warm-up
Stability Ball Leg Curl 6-8 reps
Stability Ball Shoulder Press 6-8 reps
V-ups 30 seconds
Rest 60 seconds
Repeat 1-2x
DB Rows10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Bench Press 10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Repeat 2-3x
10 minute cool-down
Saturday – Long Run
Sunday – Pilates
* Alternate Circuit Training Option
10 minute warm-up
30 second sprint
10 jump squats -or- Bosu squats
10 pushups
20 crunches
30 second sprint
10 pushups
20 walking lunges
10 chin-ups
30 second sprint
Rest 60 seconds
Repeat 3-5x
10 minute cool-down
And yes, I did do my intervals today (although I only did 4) I need to build back up since my workouts have been seriously slacking of late. Although I will point out that I was only going to do 3 and then Metallic's, Stone Cold Crazy came on the MP3 and I can't pass up an opportunity to run fast to that one.
Tuesday's are a rest day out of circumstance - stupid I know, but it's the day I really have a tough time fitting in the gym.
Today my goal is to drink more water - not a specific amount, just more than nothing would be something.
So rather than continue to post complete garbage I used that time to come up with a new plan, which I have struggled with for some time now. I know I want to run a 10K which means putting in time on the road (when I say road, I mean anything but the road: I still refuse to run on pavement or concrete for fear of injury, but you get the point), but I also like my muscles and don't want to lose them, so what to do what to do. Apparently, lately -- nothing.
But I know have a plan which I have taken a bit from Runners World, Oxygen and my own brain (scary, yes I know) and what follows is what I've come up with - and is subject to change if I find it's not working for me, or as I receive more credible information/suggestions.
I'm still looking for a race to run (since my fear of the road severely limits my choices, even here in Colorado where trails abound) the one I've found is in May - which is a bit further out than I'd like, but the way my training's going right now, it could be just what I need.
Monday – Interval Run
5-10 minute warm-up
3 minute run at 90-95%HR
2 minute recovery
Repeat 5x
10 minute cool-down
Tuesday – Rest Day
Wednesday – Circuit Training*
10 minute warm-up
Overhead Walking Lunge 6-8 reps (per leg)
Mixed-Grip Chin-up 6-8 reps
Tricep Dips 6-8 reps
Rest 60 seconds
Repeat 1-2x
Bicep Curls 10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Back Ext w/ Lower Trap Raise 10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Repeat 2-3x
10 minute cool-down
Thursday – Tempo Run 1/2 - 3/4 long run time at 80-85% HR
Friday – Circuit Training*
10 minute warm-up
Stability Ball Leg Curl 6-8 reps
Stability Ball Shoulder Press 6-8 reps
V-ups 30 seconds
Rest 60 seconds
Repeat 1-2x
DB Rows10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Bench Press 10-12 reps
Rest 30 seconds
Repeat 2-3x
10 minute cool-down
Saturday – Long Run
Sunday – Pilates
* Alternate Circuit Training Option
10 minute warm-up
30 second sprint
10 jump squats -or- Bosu squats
10 pushups
20 crunches
30 second sprint
10 pushups
20 walking lunges
10 chin-ups
30 second sprint
Rest 60 seconds
Repeat 3-5x
10 minute cool-down
And yes, I did do my intervals today (although I only did 4) I need to build back up since my workouts have been seriously slacking of late. Although I will point out that I was only going to do 3 and then Metallic's, Stone Cold Crazy came on the MP3 and I can't pass up an opportunity to run fast to that one.
Tuesday's are a rest day out of circumstance - stupid I know, but it's the day I really have a tough time fitting in the gym.
Today my goal is to drink more water - not a specific amount, just more than nothing would be something.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Early Release
Jay called last night and he’s coming home a day early – WAHOO!!!!!!!!
So a quick update since I’m sure nobody cares anymore. No nap again yesterday, but nothing destroyed – just much crying. I put her to bed about 20 minutes early, but she stayed up until normal time anyway. I have put poster board over her window to block the sunlight, not that it mattered yesterday at 5 am. But a girl can dream can’t she?
Since this is supposed to be mainly a fitness blog, I will tell you that I did make it to the gym yesterday and I did my normal interval run. I decided on a run since my current destination is a 10K, so figure I should focus on the running when I get a chance to workout. The run itself didn’t feel great, but the fact that I did it did.
Unfortunately today, I will not make it to the gym, as a matter of circumstance. I have to go to work today in the office, the gym nursery is closed during the time that I could go, and I don’t have anyone to watch Megan. That is just a fact of life when Jay’s out of town.
I don’t know why I started putting my to-do list on my blog, but I found it particularly helpful yesterday since I knew that I could not put “clean ½ bath” on here for a third day, so I just did it yesterday and felt better for the accomplishment. Some of you may remember that I won a bet earlier this year with my husband and he is supposed to be cleaning all the bathrooms every other week for a year – I think he’s cleaned the two upstairs bathrooms twice in the last 2 ½ months (and one’s the guest bath that only the toilet get used). I also went to Sam’s yesterday, another chore that I hate. And of course, last night I fill the dishwasher and go to run it and discover that the dishwasher soap, that I buy at Sam’s, is almost gone – so immediately there was something on my Sam’s shopping list again. And alas I did not beat Katie at Scrabble, it was a close though. I will try again today.
Today I will go to work, I’m not working now since I don’t seem to have an internet connection this morning (so I’m actually typing this into Word and will move it over later.) I think I will actually tackle Megan’s huge toy pile and see if I can’t clean that up some and start weeding out some used toys to make room for news ones that will be showing up in the next three months. I also plan to clean the fridge, since it’s almost empty, and I need to remember to call my sister-in-law about Thanksgiving now that I know that my sister is coming so she knows how many potatoes to bring.
So a quick update since I’m sure nobody cares anymore. No nap again yesterday, but nothing destroyed – just much crying. I put her to bed about 20 minutes early, but she stayed up until normal time anyway. I have put poster board over her window to block the sunlight, not that it mattered yesterday at 5 am. But a girl can dream can’t she?
Since this is supposed to be mainly a fitness blog, I will tell you that I did make it to the gym yesterday and I did my normal interval run. I decided on a run since my current destination is a 10K, so figure I should focus on the running when I get a chance to workout. The run itself didn’t feel great, but the fact that I did it did.
Unfortunately today, I will not make it to the gym, as a matter of circumstance. I have to go to work today in the office, the gym nursery is closed during the time that I could go, and I don’t have anyone to watch Megan. That is just a fact of life when Jay’s out of town.
I don’t know why I started putting my to-do list on my blog, but I found it particularly helpful yesterday since I knew that I could not put “clean ½ bath” on here for a third day, so I just did it yesterday and felt better for the accomplishment. Some of you may remember that I won a bet earlier this year with my husband and he is supposed to be cleaning all the bathrooms every other week for a year – I think he’s cleaned the two upstairs bathrooms twice in the last 2 ½ months (and one’s the guest bath that only the toilet get used). I also went to Sam’s yesterday, another chore that I hate. And of course, last night I fill the dishwasher and go to run it and discover that the dishwasher soap, that I buy at Sam’s, is almost gone – so immediately there was something on my Sam’s shopping list again. And alas I did not beat Katie at Scrabble, it was a close though. I will try again today.
Today I will go to work, I’m not working now since I don’t seem to have an internet connection this morning (so I’m actually typing this into Word and will move it over later.) I think I will actually tackle Megan’s huge toy pile and see if I can’t clean that up some and start weeding out some used toys to make room for news ones that will be showing up in the next three months. I also plan to clean the fridge, since it’s almost empty, and I need to remember to call my sister-in-law about Thanksgiving now that I know that my sister is coming so she knows how many potatoes to bring.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Your Generation Stinks
At least that's what some old lady at the mall thought yesterday after she told us that my friend and I were rude for letting our kids run around the children's seating area next to the merry-go-round apparently making too much noise. My friend said she was sorry but this old woman said no, we weren't sorry or we wouldn't let our children be such delinquents to which my friend attempted to point out that we were sitting in the children's area (think little tiny chairs and tables) right next to the merry-go-round (which Megan didn't get to ride because she didn't stay in her room for naptime) to which this old woman replied, "Your Generation Stinks" and left. Oh, well, so after we chuckled a little bit about ruining some woman's quiet dinner at the mall we went back to discussing how I feel like I suck at being a parent. Guess I can just blame it on my generation.
Yesterday's nap time was a little bit better - Megan said she didn't want her big girl bed anymore and so I said fine and pulled the pack-n-play out of the closet and she spend the rest of "nap time" climbing of that into her bed and back. At least that was better than the day before when she emptied two giant Rubbermaid storage bins of clothes, piece by piece, onto her bed. Or the day before that when she emptied all huge Sam's warehouse store box of diaper wipes, wipe by wipe into a drawer in her nightstand and when I went up to get her she turned around with a huge smile and exclaimed, "I'm making cookies!"
Today is off to a much better (tongue-in-cheek) start. I didn't sleep well last night and was struggling to get up at 5 this morning when I heard the pitter-patter of little feet and a shriek when she discovered the dog in the dark. After about an hour I got her to go back to bed and I think (ha!) she's still there. So I didn't start work until an hour later than usually and found that I really don't care today.
Yesterday's plan pretty much fell apart, although I did talk to my BFF and confirmed that I am completely not my normal ultra-organized self and she is not due in January like I had on my calendar (which made no sense in my head) but yes, she is due in April, so I can relax a bit on the shower planning process.
I got a call back from my sister and yes, as of this moment, the Sheriff's office will let my brother-in-law have Thanksgiving off like he was supposed to and they can come to dinner.
Needless to say, I did not get my run in, nor did I clean the 1/2 bath.
So the plan for today is:
-Go to the gym (I think, I'm really, really tired) and I don't know if I should do my run or weights, must pause to think about this.
-Beat Katie at Scrabble :) (ah, how I love playing online Scrabble with Katie - she even let me win once)
-Clean the 1/2 bath
-Fold a load/wash a load of laundry
-Make some calls for work, and then try not to work anymore today.
-Watch Ninja Warrior Fest on tv tonight
Sorry there's not much going on on the fitness front, motherhood seems to have taken over my life right now. But I am grateful for my friend, Julie, last night who refused to let me get Popeye's chicken at the mall last night for dinner. Thanks for talking me down, Julie!
Yesterday's nap time was a little bit better - Megan said she didn't want her big girl bed anymore and so I said fine and pulled the pack-n-play out of the closet and she spend the rest of "nap time" climbing of that into her bed and back. At least that was better than the day before when she emptied two giant Rubbermaid storage bins of clothes, piece by piece, onto her bed. Or the day before that when she emptied all huge Sam's warehouse store box of diaper wipes, wipe by wipe into a drawer in her nightstand and when I went up to get her she turned around with a huge smile and exclaimed, "I'm making cookies!"
Today is off to a much better (tongue-in-cheek) start. I didn't sleep well last night and was struggling to get up at 5 this morning when I heard the pitter-patter of little feet and a shriek when she discovered the dog in the dark. After about an hour I got her to go back to bed and I think (ha!) she's still there. So I didn't start work until an hour later than usually and found that I really don't care today.
Yesterday's plan pretty much fell apart, although I did talk to my BFF and confirmed that I am completely not my normal ultra-organized self and she is not due in January like I had on my calendar (which made no sense in my head) but yes, she is due in April, so I can relax a bit on the shower planning process.
I got a call back from my sister and yes, as of this moment, the Sheriff's office will let my brother-in-law have Thanksgiving off like he was supposed to and they can come to dinner.
Needless to say, I did not get my run in, nor did I clean the 1/2 bath.
So the plan for today is:
-Go to the gym (I think, I'm really, really tired) and I don't know if I should do my run or weights, must pause to think about this.
-Beat Katie at Scrabble :) (ah, how I love playing online Scrabble with Katie - she even let me win once)
-Clean the 1/2 bath
-Fold a load/wash a load of laundry
-Make some calls for work, and then try not to work anymore today.
-Watch Ninja Warrior Fest on tv tonight
Sorry there's not much going on on the fitness front, motherhood seems to have taken over my life right now. But I am grateful for my friend, Julie, last night who refused to let me get Popeye's chicken at the mall last night for dinner. Thanks for talking me down, Julie!
Monday, November 12, 2007
The tag goes in the back
I've been tagged to reveal 5 random facts about myself.
1. I have a sock fetish. I can't stand when my socks get dingy or have a hole, I immediately throw them in the rag bin.
2. I've only ever dated one guy who was under 6' - the tallest was 6'5" (I'm 5'3") and they all (except the shorty) were really lean (shorty was a body builder).
3. I stole a human skull from my high school anatomy class. I was turned in by an ex-boyfriend. My dad still gives me a hard time about this one.
4. I love the smell of vanilla extract.
5. I have a scar on my butt from falling off a ladder onto the torn up fender on my dad's '57 Thunderbird.
I'm not tagging anyone further, since it seems everyone else has already done this.
Randomness:
Yesterday was an okay day; I, and Megan, survived. Nap time consisted of her emptying two giant bins in her closet one of clothes she's outgrown and one of clothes she hasn't grown into yet, so that took some time to clean up. I'm appreciating all the advice ya'll are providing keep it coming, so far logic isn't working and bribes aren't working, but I'm not done trying.
I got to the gym for a total body workout, not too bad. I also got everything on my to-do list done and then some.
Today the plan is:
- Work a couple of hours in the morning before Megan wakes up. Go to the office while she's at school.
- Get all the trash and leaves out for the garbage truck.- DONE
- Take the recycles to the dumpsters. - Got them in the car
- Clean the 1/2 bathroom.
- Make my grocery list and preparation timeline for Thanksgiving (hosting my and Jay's family).
- Get an interval run in with Megan in the stroller if I have any energy, the weather holds and if Megan is awake (ha!)
- Talk to the BFF and she what she wants for a baby shower.
1. I have a sock fetish. I can't stand when my socks get dingy or have a hole, I immediately throw them in the rag bin.
2. I've only ever dated one guy who was under 6' - the tallest was 6'5" (I'm 5'3") and they all (except the shorty) were really lean (shorty was a body builder).
3. I stole a human skull from my high school anatomy class. I was turned in by an ex-boyfriend. My dad still gives me a hard time about this one.
4. I love the smell of vanilla extract.
5. I have a scar on my butt from falling off a ladder onto the torn up fender on my dad's '57 Thunderbird.
I'm not tagging anyone further, since it seems everyone else has already done this.
Randomness:
Yesterday was an okay day; I, and Megan, survived. Nap time consisted of her emptying two giant bins in her closet one of clothes she's outgrown and one of clothes she hasn't grown into yet, so that took some time to clean up. I'm appreciating all the advice ya'll are providing keep it coming, so far logic isn't working and bribes aren't working, but I'm not done trying.
I got to the gym for a total body workout, not too bad. I also got everything on my to-do list done and then some.
Today the plan is:
- Work a couple of hours in the morning before Megan wakes up. Go to the office while she's at school.
- Get all the trash and leaves out for the garbage truck.- DONE
- Take the recycles to the dumpsters. - Got them in the car
- Clean the 1/2 bathroom.
- Make my grocery list and preparation timeline for Thanksgiving (hosting my and Jay's family).
- Get an interval run in with Megan in the stroller if I have any energy, the weather holds and if Megan is awake (ha!)
- Talk to the BFF and she what she wants for a baby shower.
Road Trip anyone?
I finally had a good "long" run again, yesterday. I'm still not back up to 4 1/2 miles and climbing, but I did get a 3 mile run in and it felt great. Not physically great (although I think I can say I own an 11 minute mile pace down from my former 12), but mentally great.
I did a lot of thinking, mostly about my previous post about putting the focus on the process and not the results. And I was able to wrap my head around it more. I started equating it to a road trip, and I know see that "Winning the Meltdown", "Size 4", "Weighing less than 130", "Losing 65 Pounds", etc. have all been "Points of Interest" along the way of my journey and not destinations.
This way of thinking has made it easier for me to not have to think in terms of accomplishing more and bigger and better things. I can be happy at my current weight - because it's a "Point of Interest" it's not the final destination. I can enjoy it for what it is, just as someone can enjoy visiting the Corn Palace or the Worlds Largest Ball of String - it's a point of interest. I can choose to visit another lower weight, or I can turn my journey to new and different "Points of Interest" - such as running a 10K (hiking Glacier National Park) or doing a bodybuilding competition (visiting the Metropolitan Art Museum). Note: I'm as likely to do a bodybuilding competition as I am to visit the Metropolitan Art Museum - neither is my thing.
So I've been looking at my completely out dated Goal Sheet/Life Plan posted above my monitor for quite some time now and knowing that it was no longer applicable. I just don't feel it anymore. So I think under this new thinking regime that I can pull it down and replace it with my road map - places I'd like to visit. Right now the only place I can think that I'd really like to visit is a 10K - and that's okay. You can only drive to one place at a time and this is where I'm headed. But I will be looking at travel brochures along the way seeing where else I might like to go.
This way of thinking also reinforces what I've been doing for the past month or so anyway. I haven't weighed myself. I don't want to know. I know my diet hasn't been as good as it should be, I know my workouts haven't been as consistent as I would like. So why punish myself by looking at the scale and telling me what I already know. But what I do know is I still look in the mirror and am happy with what I see (yes, I still turn around and wish my butt and thighs were smaller) and I know that my small clothes still fit. So why sweat it by giving it a number, in the long run I really don't think knowing would effect me in a positive way.
Now on to the mundane story of my life:
Yesterday I learned the true feeling of looking for a needle in a haystack - Jay lost his wedding ring in the pile of leaves. Four hours later, most of the neighbors, and a metal detector and we found it.
Mom-guilt is doing better since I've learned I'm not the only mom to put the gate up to keep my kid in her room during "nap time" after switching to the big bed. She's still not napping and is completely exhausted - evidenced by falling asleep in the car on the way to dinner, sleeping in the booth at TGI Friday's through dinner and only waking back up when picked up to head back out to the car - and- apparently putting herself to bed at the sitter's last night, early.
I'm a single-mom this week, I don't know how real single mom's do it - I would vote for one for President in a heartbeat, with how well they can juggle it all, and how organized you have to be. But good news for me my girlfriends are jumping in and I've got a couple of dinner invites to make the days not as long.
My girlfriends have an outing planned for me Friday night when Jay's back to take me out for my birthday - and won't tell me where we're going. I'm excited and curious.
Question for Runners out there:
How do you keep the nylon drawstring in your running shorts from not getting all wound up like a bad phone cord in the wash? and better yet, how do you fix it after it's happened?
Today's To Do List:
Megan to school
Clean kitchen floor ('cause my root beer blew up) - DONE
Do laundry - in progress
Wash windows
Buy card for nephew's birthday
I did a lot of thinking, mostly about my previous post about putting the focus on the process and not the results. And I was able to wrap my head around it more. I started equating it to a road trip, and I know see that "Winning the Meltdown", "Size 4", "Weighing less than 130", "Losing 65 Pounds", etc. have all been "Points of Interest" along the way of my journey and not destinations.
This way of thinking has made it easier for me to not have to think in terms of accomplishing more and bigger and better things. I can be happy at my current weight - because it's a "Point of Interest" it's not the final destination. I can enjoy it for what it is, just as someone can enjoy visiting the Corn Palace or the Worlds Largest Ball of String - it's a point of interest. I can choose to visit another lower weight, or I can turn my journey to new and different "Points of Interest" - such as running a 10K (hiking Glacier National Park) or doing a bodybuilding competition (visiting the Metropolitan Art Museum). Note: I'm as likely to do a bodybuilding competition as I am to visit the Metropolitan Art Museum - neither is my thing.
So I've been looking at my completely out dated Goal Sheet/Life Plan posted above my monitor for quite some time now and knowing that it was no longer applicable. I just don't feel it anymore. So I think under this new thinking regime that I can pull it down and replace it with my road map - places I'd like to visit. Right now the only place I can think that I'd really like to visit is a 10K - and that's okay. You can only drive to one place at a time and this is where I'm headed. But I will be looking at travel brochures along the way seeing where else I might like to go.
This way of thinking also reinforces what I've been doing for the past month or so anyway. I haven't weighed myself. I don't want to know. I know my diet hasn't been as good as it should be, I know my workouts haven't been as consistent as I would like. So why punish myself by looking at the scale and telling me what I already know. But what I do know is I still look in the mirror and am happy with what I see (yes, I still turn around and wish my butt and thighs were smaller) and I know that my small clothes still fit. So why sweat it by giving it a number, in the long run I really don't think knowing would effect me in a positive way.
Now on to the mundane story of my life:
Yesterday I learned the true feeling of looking for a needle in a haystack - Jay lost his wedding ring in the pile of leaves. Four hours later, most of the neighbors, and a metal detector and we found it.
Mom-guilt is doing better since I've learned I'm not the only mom to put the gate up to keep my kid in her room during "nap time" after switching to the big bed. She's still not napping and is completely exhausted - evidenced by falling asleep in the car on the way to dinner, sleeping in the booth at TGI Friday's through dinner and only waking back up when picked up to head back out to the car - and- apparently putting herself to bed at the sitter's last night, early.
I'm a single-mom this week, I don't know how real single mom's do it - I would vote for one for President in a heartbeat, with how well they can juggle it all, and how organized you have to be. But good news for me my girlfriends are jumping in and I've got a couple of dinner invites to make the days not as long.
My girlfriends have an outing planned for me Friday night when Jay's back to take me out for my birthday - and won't tell me where we're going. I'm excited and curious.
Question for Runners out there:
How do you keep the nylon drawstring in your running shorts from not getting all wound up like a bad phone cord in the wash? and better yet, how do you fix it after it's happened?
Today's To Do List:
Megan to school
Clean kitchen floor ('cause my root beer blew up) - DONE
Do laundry - in progress
Wash windows
Buy card for nephew's birthday
Thursday, November 08, 2007
My A-ha Moment
Things of passion are not something to be checked off a list. You aren't "done". Health, fitness, balance, faith, and building and nurturing of relationships, parenting...theses things do not end. There is no star for completion. Even a task well done or a milestone met is not a conclusion, it is simply a transition zone to a new beginning.
When we embrace this mindset and accept the mobility of the unset finish line, we can begin to grow into people who are manifested in the moment . . . people who equally relish the process and the punctuation.
How does Kristen Armstrong always seem to find a way to put into words the feelings running through my head? For it seems like the past 6 months I've been talking about the always moving goals ... I get to 130, I want to be 125, then 120, I want to be a size 8, then 6, then 4 ... I meet a goal and suddenly the finish line moves on me, and the huge frustration that I've felt with that. Or even meeting my goal of finally winning the Meltdown and this feeling of now what. Then Ms. Armstrong comes along and puts a positive prospective on the whole ordeal. It's going to take me a bit to wrap my head around this one but it makes point that can't be ignored. I need to focus more on the journey and not just the rewards.
This week I'm just trying to survive, however. Key note to parents: don't switch to the big bed on the same night as daylight savings - sleep is soooo screwed up at our house and in serious short supply. My wonderful little sleeper who started sleeping through the night at 8 weeks is now suddenly afraid of the dark, won't go to bed at night, refuses to nap and wakes up at 5 am when I do. She is so tired she's "resting" everywhere from empty shelves at the library to under chairs. On the positive side - there is a huge push toward potty training. Next weeks plan is more survival mode - Jay is out of town all week on business so it's just me and the lil' zombie - God help us both!
Monday, November 05, 2007
Body Image
When does your body image catch up to your body?
I've been a size 4/small now for several months. Today I finally broke down and went to Sports Authority to buy some running shorts that weren't HUGE on me (I've been wearing my pre-weight loss running shorts). As I wandered around the store picking up possibles to try on I would look at them and kept deciding that the smalls looked too small and would get the mediums. After the fitting room, I took the styles I'd decided on and went back to get smalls instead. The mediums were all too big and even one of the smalls that I'd originally picked out was too big. I so don't get it, I mean it's even that TOM, my diet has been hell (workouts are just back on track) and I feel like an icky bloated mess. I just don't see the small me, that I've become yet. My husband met me for lunch right after and I told him what I'd been doing and he just said: yes, you are small now - and thank goodness I'm getting rid of those old shorts.
I had a workout today that I'm proud of - I did it. I tried to talk myself into not going to the gym, and then after I got there into leaving. Oh forgot my MP3, there's no way I can do this without music, okay as soon as my 10 minute warm up is over I'm outta here, I'm only doing one circuit today then I can leave, and the after 2 circuits I did finally leave without doing my cool down . . . I had to draw the line somewhere. I'm not entirely sure why I didn't want to workout today: Tired from the time change? That TOM? That first glass of wine in months that I'd had last night? Tired from my "long run" yesterday? No clue, but I did get something accomplished and of that I am proud.
My "long" run yesterday was bad, it was only 2 miles. This is 2 weeks in a row of short "long" runs. I came to two conclusions 1) I have to go first thing in the morning, no more waiting until Megan wakes up, having breakfast, and then the whole family going (although Jay suggested that we have our breakfast long before Megan wakes up so we're not running on such a full stomach) and 2) I'm not sure if this circuit/cardio training that I'm doing is actually conducive to my running - my legs were really tired and sore. But I've decided to get this training program another week, since it really is my first week back hitting it hard after a few bad weeks and that could have a lot to do with it as well.
I've been a size 4/small now for several months. Today I finally broke down and went to Sports Authority to buy some running shorts that weren't HUGE on me (I've been wearing my pre-weight loss running shorts). As I wandered around the store picking up possibles to try on I would look at them and kept deciding that the smalls looked too small and would get the mediums. After the fitting room, I took the styles I'd decided on and went back to get smalls instead. The mediums were all too big and even one of the smalls that I'd originally picked out was too big. I so don't get it, I mean it's even that TOM, my diet has been hell (workouts are just back on track) and I feel like an icky bloated mess. I just don't see the small me, that I've become yet. My husband met me for lunch right after and I told him what I'd been doing and he just said: yes, you are small now - and thank goodness I'm getting rid of those old shorts.
I had a workout today that I'm proud of - I did it. I tried to talk myself into not going to the gym, and then after I got there into leaving. Oh forgot my MP3, there's no way I can do this without music, okay as soon as my 10 minute warm up is over I'm outta here, I'm only doing one circuit today then I can leave, and the after 2 circuits I did finally leave without doing my cool down . . . I had to draw the line somewhere. I'm not entirely sure why I didn't want to workout today: Tired from the time change? That TOM? That first glass of wine in months that I'd had last night? Tired from my "long run" yesterday? No clue, but I did get something accomplished and of that I am proud.
My "long" run yesterday was bad, it was only 2 miles. This is 2 weeks in a row of short "long" runs. I came to two conclusions 1) I have to go first thing in the morning, no more waiting until Megan wakes up, having breakfast, and then the whole family going (although Jay suggested that we have our breakfast long before Megan wakes up so we're not running on such a full stomach) and 2) I'm not sure if this circuit/cardio training that I'm doing is actually conducive to my running - my legs were really tired and sore. But I've decided to get this training program another week, since it really is my first week back hitting it hard after a few bad weeks and that could have a lot to do with it as well.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
What have you been doing?
First I want to say that I spend some time yesterday trying to catch up on everyone's blogs and you are all doing so well, it was so inspiring and motivating - WAY TO GO!!!!
Now on to me, which is probably neither inspiring or motivating.
Well, Monday was good - got my workout in.
Then Tuesday I was stupid, I forgot that was the day of my daughter's Halloween Party at school (in my mind I just thought Halloween, and thought it was Wednesday, and she doesn't have school on Wednesday) but thank goodness Jay was paying attention. So instead of going to the gym before work I made a bunch of treats for the party. Of which I would have posted a picture, right next to the picture of Megan in her Halloween costume, but Bloggers says no.
Yesterday I had a good workout and then I had another good workout again this morning before work. So although I missed Tuesday's I'm still working out more regularly than I have in the past few weeks.
I've started doing something new in that I've started actually doing the workouts that come in my fitness magazines, Oxygen and M&F Hers. I was so busy this month that I didn't have time to plan anything in advance so I just started tearing them out of my magazines and I've got to say they are pretty good. M&F Hers had a really good LWBO and and UBWO this last issue and this week I'm doing a workout that was in Oxygen.
The Oxygen workout is mostly cardio - which is good, cause in my fitness/food has been slacking and I could use the burn and it works with my goal to run more. I don't miss the weights yet, but I have a feeling I won't be able to do this for too long without longing for some free weights.
Three people already this week have asked me if I'm losing weight still and said how good I look. I say thank you, but in truth, I don't think I possibly could be given my lack of effort lately and the fact that I haven't weighed myself in at least a month. I figure it can't be good and my clothes fit, so I just don't even want to know. But these compliments make me wonder . . .
The workout, for those that are curious, is:
Monday - Circuit Training: Sprint, jump squats, pushups, crunches, Sprint, pushups, walking lunges, chinups, Sprint and repeat as many times as you can.
Tuesday - Intervals
Wednesday - Circuit Training: Same as Monday
Thursday - Tempo Run
Friday - Circuit Training: Same as Monday
Saturday - Long Run
Sunday - Rest
Now on to me, which is probably neither inspiring or motivating.
Well, Monday was good - got my workout in.
Then Tuesday I was stupid, I forgot that was the day of my daughter's Halloween Party at school (in my mind I just thought Halloween, and thought it was Wednesday, and she doesn't have school on Wednesday) but thank goodness Jay was paying attention. So instead of going to the gym before work I made a bunch of treats for the party. Of which I would have posted a picture, right next to the picture of Megan in her Halloween costume, but Bloggers says no.
Yesterday I had a good workout and then I had another good workout again this morning before work. So although I missed Tuesday's I'm still working out more regularly than I have in the past few weeks.
I've started doing something new in that I've started actually doing the workouts that come in my fitness magazines, Oxygen and M&F Hers. I was so busy this month that I didn't have time to plan anything in advance so I just started tearing them out of my magazines and I've got to say they are pretty good. M&F Hers had a really good LWBO and and UBWO this last issue and this week I'm doing a workout that was in Oxygen.
The Oxygen workout is mostly cardio - which is good, cause in my fitness/food has been slacking and I could use the burn and it works with my goal to run more. I don't miss the weights yet, but I have a feeling I won't be able to do this for too long without longing for some free weights.
Three people already this week have asked me if I'm losing weight still and said how good I look. I say thank you, but in truth, I don't think I possibly could be given my lack of effort lately and the fact that I haven't weighed myself in at least a month. I figure it can't be good and my clothes fit, so I just don't even want to know. But these compliments make me wonder . . .
The workout, for those that are curious, is:
Monday - Circuit Training: Sprint, jump squats, pushups, crunches, Sprint, pushups, walking lunges, chinups, Sprint and repeat as many times as you can.
Tuesday - Intervals
Wednesday - Circuit Training: Same as Monday
Thursday - Tempo Run
Friday - Circuit Training: Same as Monday
Saturday - Long Run
Sunday - Rest
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