Truckin' Along

Monday 4/6

Well it wasn't a perfect day, but I can see I'm making progress. I did have a cookie in the morning, the one I carried around in my purse all day Sunday without eating. But while grocery shopping I got really hungry, so I ate it. (I did manage to by-pass all the yummy treats in the bulk bins at Sunflower Market, but now in hindsight maybe I should have bought, oh I don't know, an apple? Sheez, I just don't think sometimes!) Also I had 3 or 4 of the Almond Honey cookies, after Jay and Megan finished making them (they are really tiny, which is still no excuse for that many).

Workout was 30 minutes of lower body weights, low weight, high rep. Still trying to figure what's best given all the biking and running I need to do so that my legs are so sore from weights to do the cardio training I need to do. But then I did an hour of flow yoga which really got me sweating. The only bad news is that I managed to strain my right big toe while stretching my toes out before class stared, but it'll be okay - I hope!

I did mediate yesterday, which was funny. I realized that I'm usually really anxious when I go into the other room and set on the floor and start to read the mediation for the day thinking of all the things I should be doing and need to get done instead, but soon after I find that I don't want to get up and get back to what I need to do and I'd be happy and content to see there on the floor all day. I can't wait until the weather is nice enough and I can move my practice out to the back deck, then I really may never come back.

I only bought healthy food from the grocery store (except stuff for Jay's birthday cake/butter pound cake, the home-made ice cream that we're in charge of for Easter, and a couple of treats for Megan's Easter basket).

I did get some reading done, but my computer usage was a little higher than I would have liked. I don't know why I get so sucked into a couple of sites and can't just check them once a day.

I saw my therapist yesterday for the first time in weeks. Nothing to earth-shattering. She seemed to do most of the talking, which was sort of annoying, but told her I want to jump on this food issue and so she gave me an article to read that she'd promised me last time and asked that I start a food diary to bring with me when I see her again in 3 weeks. Her thoughts aren't necessarily that there's something sinister in my past that makes me eat, it's just that I've built such strong habits/behaviors around eating that like water flowing, my eating continually goes back to the easiest route, which is the one I've always done.

Looking forward to Tuesday:

- Today is my running clubs first Track Workout of the year - ACK!

- Today I WILL continue to eat healthy, which is always more of a struggle when I go into work which I haven't figured out exactly why yet. But today I go back after a week off. I'll be taking Megan's teachers at school a good number of those cookies to reduce the number in my house.

- Today I WILL check my websites only 2x today, no more!

- Today I WILL finish "Naked in Death" and start "Long Lost"!!!! Not really a goal, just excited.

- Today I WILL start a food diary, as requested by my therapist.